It's been awhile

so... it's been forever but I'm back on. so what happened since the last time I was on here. I married the girl of my dreams. helped get crossroads church rolling. now I play there every week. it's been so busy that I haven't had time or made time for this or my friends or my Savior to be honest. sometimes life gets so noisy my head starts to spin and I forget whets important. why do we humans forget things so easily???  on minute your thanking God for taking care of you, next minute your in over your head trying to make your life the kind of life you want. it like getting tunnel vision. I mean it's not really MY life anyway right? so why do I worry? fret? lose focus? the obvious answer is it's in my blood...

   in the first book of the Bible there is a story about the first murder committed. Cain (a farmer) kills his brother, and because of the shame and punishment he is kicked out of his home. on his own he waunders "east of Eden" and makes his house there.     interesting.     left to ourselves we always end up "east of Eden" don't we.

 just shy of perfection.

 of where we were meant to be. 

we even make it our home.

as long as we trust in God's direction and try to listen to even in the loud 21century world. instead of our built-navigation we can strive to go where God wants us.

    another observation about Cain. God wanted him to keep moving to waunder and not stop... be he didn't. 

he settled.

 settling is in his nature. 

perhaps it's in ours...