Lately, I've been thinking about those times when we get hurt............I mean really hurt.............the kind that is so dark that you can't see anything at all. no hope. no light. and all you feel is betrayed by God, fate, and life itself.My question why do we hold on so hard to the pain that is killing us!? Like, if I let go of this, I will be left with nothing, no emotion will be left. I will just be left to myself, alone, dry, and emotionless.
I don't realise that if I can kill this beast that is holding onto to me. Then I am freeing God to do something great inside of me. I forget that He will never let me fall into that hopeless state of nothingness that I'm so afraid of. If you let go God WILL catch you, every time.
Another reason I think it is so hard to let go is I'm afraid that if I " just let go" I won't be giving justice to the magnitude of the what I was dealing with. Like I'd be saying "well, it wasn't that big a deal to begin with" when was.......big time!!......but what I've discovered that what was the point of all that hurt if I don't move on, and come out on the other side stronger than I was before. It's almost like I owe it to the magnitude of the pain to get something out of it all and move on so that I can use what I've learned when the next hurricane hits.
Psalm 94:17- If the Lord had not been my help, My soul would soon have dwelt in the abode of silence. If I should say "my foot has slipped," Your lovingkindness, O Lord, will hold me up. When my anxious thoughts multiply inside my head, Your consolations delight my soul.
1 Samuel 12:22- the Lord will not abandon His people, because of his great name, because the Lord is pleased to make you His people.
John 14:18- ( Jesus talking) I will not leave you as orphans; I will come to you.
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